When is enough, enough?!

So this guy Ive been talking to for almost 2 years and I ended things today. And yes, I did it over text! who cares?! lol He wanted to take things to the next level (marriage) and I'm still refuse to call you my boyfriend! Needless to say we were not on the same page.
I knew from day one we were not truly compatible but he was sooooooo good to me. The best guy Ive ever been involved with. However, in the back of my mind I always knew I wouldn't be able to give him my heart because he didn't have the entire package of what I wanted in my end all guy. So the moral of my story is don't waste your time or anyone else's...its just wrong. Ive learned that I can tell within 12 mins of talking to a guy whether he is marriage potential or not. I have to learn how to stop doing the here and now thing and get serious, like immediately. *Never settle* love you ;-)

Soulmates

So I was twitter today (as I frequently am) and I ran across a tweet saying soulmates went out with Eve and the garden...for some reason that just didnt sit right with me. Maybe Im a hopeless romantic, foolish or simply hopeful. I believe in soulmates. Ive experienced it in both friendships and romantic relationships. I think it is possible to find someone who shares a similar soul. Someone who makes you feel as though forever is attainable, someone who makes you feel as though you belong somewhere in this world, someone who knows what you are thinking before the thought processes, someone who was created to share your space. So yes, it is hard for me to think that soulmates do not exist...I believe that God gives us choices and I believe that there is more than one person for everybody. However, I also believe that you can find someone that fits you like a glove and vice versa, friendship and relationship wise. I have a friend that I met 10 years ago and we have been like sisters ever since. When we first met we hung out daily, and never got into an argument. People used to say they didnt know one without the other, we complemented each other so well. I always call her my soulmate, to this day I would give up anything for our friendship. Then I met another friend who seemed like an angel sent from above, we were just so similar and so compatible. It isnt hard to find a friend or a lover but it is hard to find someone who you feel was created just for you.
* I believe in soulmates and I hope each of you find yours and never let them go :-) *

The Slick Slayer

Last nite I talked to a good friend who told me out of nowhere that she was admitting herself into rehab in the morning. It was so unexpected and sad. I had no idea she was using, at all. I mean we hang out everyday almost and I had no idea. When she told me it crushed my heart, but I was excited for her to go to rehab and get her life together....
Im 23 years old and have a close family member who has struggled with drugs since I was born. So this issue is very close to my heart. I have seen families torn a part, houses and cars lost, death threats, tears poured... all over drugs. I do not think the average person truly understands what drugs do to people. Its not just about the user but the family and friends that suffer the most. Im sure many of you have seen celebrity rehab on VH1 or even a "crackheads" roaming the streets. But even that can barely capture the pain and devastation that drugs can cause. I have literally had my life ruined from someone else's addiction. To the point that its hard to get a car, house or even job due to debts accrued because of someone else's addiction. Not to mention when children are involved ....thats the saddest part.
The only positive thing about this is that there is hope! Not just rehab or 12 steps but real, eternal, instantaneous hope! GOD...enough said. My family member who struggled with drugs for 23 years is finally clean. It is literally a MIRACLE. You know how sometimes you question if God is real or if he is just someone your parents told you about to ensure you behave well? Well,...HE's real. If I never knew it before I know it now. The fact that my family member is clean and is happy and productive and inspiring is amazing. You have to understand, in therapy they tell you "once an addict, always an addict" NO SIR! That is a lie because when God says its over, its OVER. My family member finally made the choice to let God heal him and God did. Now they call me up with inspiring words and scriptures...wow! I say all this to say, no matter how appealing, how bored you may be, how sad you may be, drugs are no joke. Its for suicidal purposes only! For those who struggle..when you are serious about being free, you will be. Just reach out and touch HIM, HE is awaiting you. Love you all :-)

In our weakness

Are you willing to die for your dreams? For your goals? For you're God?! You may not physically be without life but emotionally life as you now know it can die. It can transform into something completely different. Does that scare you? If so, that fine. We fear the unknown. We have faith but that doesn't mean we are absent of some amount of fear.
Well I've been reading my fav book ...The Purpose Driven Life and I came across this .."If you want God to bless you greatly, you must be willing to walk w/a limp the rest of your life, because God only uses weak people." For some reason that made me speechless. All I wanted to do was sit and let that marinate. It may be one of the most profound things I've ever read. You know why? Because its TRUTH. There is something so bitter sweet about the truth that hurts but it also frees us. I love it! Yes we are all weak, not matter how strong we seem we all have great weaknesses as well. The fact that being weak is ok, and even pleasing to God just let's us know that he is the one we can lean on. He is the one we can depend on, his strength is made perfect in our weakness :-) love you!

Jewel Award: Tyler Perry

As I'm watching "Unsung" on TVOne featuring Tyler Perry, I realized how often good ppl are left unrecognized. I'm going to start giving out Jewel Awards for my blog. Awarding those who truly have an amazing impact on making the world a better place by sharing their blessings with other.
The first recipient will be Tyler Perry! He truly is amazing. He is talented beyond measure and has a genuine desire to help his people. Mr. Perry came from an abusive
household and struggled throughout his youth with emotional difficulties and poverty. His faith in God enabled him to persevere through it all and create an amazing career. He has put so many talented peviously unknown actors and actresses in films and plays and has illuminated their career. Mr Perry also opened his own studio in Atlanta and now has his own talk show on tvOne. He gives back to he community through various community efforts and has given hope to the hopeless. Tyler Perry has highlighted issue within the Black community that have previously been neglected. He found a way to add humor to discreetly hit on key issues. He has given Black people a sense of community and pride. We can look at a movie or play that is entertaining and not offensive to our race. We see that he is successful and shares his opportunity with countless others. I am so proud and grateful for him in the industry. Congratulations Mr. Perry! We honor you and we crown you a "Jewel" in the world.

*Go see "Why Did I Get Married Too?" In theaters tomorrow*